Lost

this was supposed to be someone talking to themself, trying to decide whether to hide away or to live their life.

Oh great I'm lost again
I can't find my way out
but thats fine
why see the world
when I'm safe in here
If I knew where I was
I might be able to live life
but why
why when I can be all alone
with nothing
and no one to bother me
If I found myself
I'd have to look in the first place
and that takes time
time thats better spent in here
sitting, staying and living
safe
out there I can be swept away
in here I CAN'T MOVE
I'm SMOTHERED!
but its safer
No one to hurt me
no one to hate me
NO ONE AT ALL!
Numb
If I feel nothing
I can't be hurt
I'm indestructible
as I sit in here getting older and older
BUT IT'S SAFER
but i'm not living
it doesn't matter
LIFE IS OVER RATED!
but its what i've got
and life is what I want
No i don't
ITS NOT SAFE
if you search for yourself
you might actually find you
SO WHAT?
WHAT IF I WANT TO LEAVE
WHAT IF I WANT TO FEEL
WHAT IF I WANT TO LIVE
but its not safe
I'm lost
is that fine
I'M BEING CRUSHED
but do I want to leave
I'M DYING IN HERE
I HAVE TO BREATHE
but it's not safe...