Trust Who?

How can I be such a fool once again?
It is a risk to love, but what if it works?
Is he really what they mention?
I grew up to never judge by sight,
Or the way the ocean looks above water.
But it is also a risk to leave shore,
For I often can't tell if I'm drowning or swimming.
It's sad to say we have to teach our children to be this way.
That love and trust are far away things.
We even teach them to not love.
But how do I escape my inner most feelings?
They always say I'm pretty stupid;
There's no hope for me.
But do I always fall this easily?
Is he really what they say he is to be?
Maybe we do live in a day and age
Where you can't pick apart between what's fake and reality.
How can I be such a fool once again?
Following tis stupid heart and its fantasies...
Who the hell am I, really?
Pease don't lie to me...
I can only bend so much before it starts hurting.
It is a risk to love, but what if it doesn't work?
I grew up to never judge by sight,
Or the way the ocean looks above water.
But is that reality?
According to them I see only the good in people,
But what the fuck do they know of me?
We always judge and judge, and judge.
This is reality!
People who can only see and feel, and shit.
And fill other people with shit!
I don't want to be filled with scummy lies;
I don't want to listen to someone scummy enough,
To do what they say you're doing to me!
So please...
Don't lie to me.
I don't agree with them,
Not because I'm blind, young, lost, or stupid.
But because I'm a thinking person...
I want to have hope you're not like all of them.
I can't help to feel something right
When I think of you.
But if it isn't true,
Please tell me before I keep thinking...
Please tell me before I start feeling...
Because I haven't felt in so long, any feelings.
But I am just a fool hoping for childish impossibilities.
And they are the ones who can truly see...
Maybe it's best to feel nothing...
Trapped by destiny?