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You sent me a text
Last night
And I didn’t reply
But you probably weren’t surprised
I never do

I never check my phone
And when I do
I don’t reply
Because I’m the only one awake
At 2 am
On a Thursday night

You sent me a text
Last night
And I didn’t reply
Though I saw it.

I was sad
I don’t like you seeing me
Like that,
Vulnerable
And irrational,
I wanted to be

Alone.

I wanted you.
But I don’t want you
To know
Just how weak I really am
Because you might want to talk
And I can only talk in
This terrible verse.

And I’m scared
You won’t want me.
Because I’m a mess
And insecure.

Sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry.