Confused

How can I move on?
When moving on would destroy her completely
From memory/From existence

How is it that losing one little blob
Could have hurt me so much?
How can I ever be expected to go on?
I want to scream/shout/cry
And no one is here to tell me
It will be OK

I felt her
I knew she was there
How can I try to explain
The pain her loss left behind?

My Violet Rose
So innocent I never even met her
Entirely unwanted but entirely loved
How do I explain?

I didn't want her
Sixteen is too young/Not ready/Never ready
But her absence still haunts me

No one understands
"Move on" "Get over it"
"It" because she wasn't a she yet
Just a dream led me to believe
It was a girl
Mine