You took my life but I would still die for you
Black tears bleed my pain
Cold blood leaves my veins
Crimson love ebbs from these wounds
Tainted with dirt and tears
From the night you left me calling after you
Helpless and distraught in the dark streets
You’re dead to shame and proud of what you’ve done
I’m just left for dead and ashamed
How you left me without pride
Ashamed of what I still feel for you
Deep inside, where your rejection like razors couldn’t reach
I still want you close to me, both of us safe and warm like before
This secret haunts me
My head spinning as emotions mix into a toxic fusion
I feel like I could cry
Or scream
Or slowly painfully die here forgotten in the dark
Like I could end this all now
(do you ever think of me?
Do you remember the way we used to be?)
I’m already bleeding
You set a kerosene fire to my open wounds
Before you left
Could it possibly be worse if I just gave in?
Without you I feel meaningless
Even as I know what you took from me
Before you abandon me
Without a second thought, without a trace
I wish you were here beside me now
But then I see your retreating form
Leaving me behind and slashing me deep before you vanished
Through the blood and my silent screams
I shut my eyes and try to forget you, to sleep
Your image appears again, an invasion, your laughing smile
Laughing the way you did before
When I thought you loved me too
I want to smash something, mirrors with my fists
Bottles of liquor on brick, shredding your love letters,
Then light it on fire just to see with my eyes
How I’m feeling inside
( did you mean any of those things the letters say?
Was I ever more than just a game?)
But I know in the raging, dancing flames
Your eyes would appear, taunting bright in the heart of the blaze
So I lay on the floor of this
Dark, still room alone
And try to think of anything but you
But it will never work
And I know I cant forget you
So your ghost haunts me through the night
Hate and love battling the long slow hours away
Till I don’t know what I’m feeling anymore
Can’t think, cant cry, cant breathe, can only feel this pain
Can only see your face and hear echoes of your voice
Exhausted but I know this is far from over
As dawn approaches, small mercies let me sleep
Drifting towards images I thank God aren’t of you
I steal an hour from torment to relief
Cold blood leaves my veins
Crimson love ebbs from these wounds
Tainted with dirt and tears
From the night you left me calling after you
Helpless and distraught in the dark streets
You’re dead to shame and proud of what you’ve done
I’m just left for dead and ashamed
How you left me without pride
Ashamed of what I still feel for you
Deep inside, where your rejection like razors couldn’t reach
I still want you close to me, both of us safe and warm like before
This secret haunts me
My head spinning as emotions mix into a toxic fusion
I feel like I could cry
Or scream
Or slowly painfully die here forgotten in the dark
Like I could end this all now
(do you ever think of me?
Do you remember the way we used to be?)
I’m already bleeding
You set a kerosene fire to my open wounds
Before you left
Could it possibly be worse if I just gave in?
Without you I feel meaningless
Even as I know what you took from me
Before you abandon me
Without a second thought, without a trace
I wish you were here beside me now
But then I see your retreating form
Leaving me behind and slashing me deep before you vanished
Through the blood and my silent screams
I shut my eyes and try to forget you, to sleep
Your image appears again, an invasion, your laughing smile
Laughing the way you did before
When I thought you loved me too
I want to smash something, mirrors with my fists
Bottles of liquor on brick, shredding your love letters,
Then light it on fire just to see with my eyes
How I’m feeling inside
( did you mean any of those things the letters say?
Was I ever more than just a game?)
But I know in the raging, dancing flames
Your eyes would appear, taunting bright in the heart of the blaze
So I lay on the floor of this
Dark, still room alone
And try to think of anything but you
But it will never work
And I know I cant forget you
So your ghost haunts me through the night
Hate and love battling the long slow hours away
Till I don’t know what I’m feeling anymore
Can’t think, cant cry, cant breathe, can only feel this pain
Can only see your face and hear echoes of your voice
Exhausted but I know this is far from over
As dawn approaches, small mercies let me sleep
Drifting towards images I thank God aren’t of you
I steal an hour from torment to relief