Masochist

I am a masochist
In the worst way possible
The pain of everyday life
Giving me the pain I need.

The pain I require
To feel alive.

Who needs razors
Or eating disorders
When I have my mind
And the stress keeping me grounded.

Sometimes I think that I would be sadder
If I was happy.
Because I would be the same
As the others.

Why be normal
When popping pills
Would be the thing keeping me
From going insane?

I am a masochist
In the worst way possible.
I cause myself pain
To keep myself alive.