Scarlet Kisses

The only sound I hear right now
is that of falling water drops.
I'm all alone, alone at home,
knowing there's something I'm not.

I cannot explain
the tears and the pain
that coincide with my life.
All I can say is I'm never okay
and no, it's never alright.

Tips press in, new depths are reached
and scarlet kisses are revealed.
With nowhere to go, I call them my home
and constantly visit at will.

Now I don't eat, now I can't sleep,
now I can't even walk outside
Without all the eyes of judgmental spies
who stare when I come by.

I cannot be strong, nor can I be brave
because those I adore ignore.
I'm afraid of the dark, so much it's an art.
A master at having nothing to live for.