Pointless Questions

What if I'm using you
And we can't even see it
What if I am that good
It doesn't make you feel bad
Such a simple question
Without a simple answer
I just hope I'm not
I just couldn't live with myself
With tears in my eyes
Falling to the ground
One last hug, a final touch
Off the edge, thoughts of you
The last I will ever think

I'm still falling
My voice going from the screams

And I'm back upon my bed
Lying next to him
You shouldn't of jumped
I couldn't stop you, slipping away
Right through my fingers
Like the dirt beneath our feet
I'm the one, lost my balance
You risked your life
Just to save mine
I wish you hadn't
I wanted you to live
More than anything
Just distant thoughts and hopes
Of a broken girl
With a child on the way
He will share your name
To honour your beautiful life
I still wonder if I was using you
And we were to in love to see it
Pointless questions with still no answer