#91 My First Love

For you I was never good enough, looking back, I don't give a fuck. You used me as a mere toy of pleasure, then pushed me when you were done. I never meant to hurt him (Justin) just like you hurt everyone. Your love, or what used to be, haunts my life. You cut out my heart with a knife, now it remains: frozen, still and loveless and i really couldn't care less. It's not like I could since you took that part away just look at me now. I hurt a close friend, I flirted with a stranger, I tried online dating and it put my life in danger but most importantly I let the people I'm close to down. How will i ever turn my life back around?