Billy
Hearts are worn on sleeves
Souls are lost in seconds
They blow away like leaves
The thought of death it beckons
That’s what he used to say
Well, before the day he went away
He tossed and turned that lonesome night
But I was none the wiser
I wish he could just stay and fight
From the world he was my visor
The last time we spoke
The words stuck in the air
The sunlight, it reflected off his glistening hair
He looked over,
Without a hint of glee
Stating ‘its not easy being just like me’
I knew from that moment
I knew from that day
My friend Billy,
My friend Billy,
He was going away
He knew from that glance
He knew by his stance
He more than others
Would have to pay.
His laughter
His smile
It still lingers for a while
Then shattered by the weight reality pressing down
At this I frown
But nothing can stop the seeping of brown
I say with a sigh
As the years pass me by
That Billy was my significant other
But as people query
Over their negative theory
I just sit and listen
The sun on his hair
Glisten, glisten, glisten.
Some say its fair
They agree that its right
Oh how I wish he could stay and fight
But re-telling the story
Has proved to be gorey
So I just stick to the fact
And stay on the track
So maybe one day
I’ll be able to tell
His story quite well
No more stutters
No more tears
I’m sick of still wishing
He we’re still here
He thought he could fly
All he was fed was a lie
As he jumped, as he twisted
He noticed the life that he resisted
He looked back up and saw the sky
He knew for sure he was to die
But not that day, if not another
For he was saved by his significant other
As I ran, as I flew
I noticed the sky, it was so blue
As he twisted, as he turned
His face was drawn, his eyes were shut, and he knew what he had earned
I stood there and watched him fall
I knew from that moment I had to stand tall
I ran and I swerved, I dodged and I ducked
Physically I was fine, emotionally I was recked
Everything came up all in my head,
As I tucked
As I tucked it away I thought he was dead
But as he fell
And as I ran
I realised something
He couldn’t die
He was already dead
As the sweat trickled down my face
I had to realise my place
I wasn’t here, nor there
Matter of fact, I wasn’t anywhere
This was all a dream
I was quite sure
For he was flying
The lies fed to him were no longer fed by the lying
As he swooped
As he soared
The heavens opened up and roared
He was an angel, sent from above
I was quite sure, he had my love
But then he fell
When he landed he let out a yell
Was I just seeing things?
Or was it all real?
The only thing I knew for sure was what I could feel
The rise of his chest
The fall of his breast
He was there
I was here
Yet he was smiling from ear to ear
He was back
But not for long
He only had time to sing me a song
He sung me to sleep
I couldn’t help but weep
I lay there
He lay near
He became a little voice inside my ear
“I will wait for you, no matter how long it takes, I am here looking over you, now and forever, you are my tether I am you, you are me, I love who you are I love what you’ve made me, maybe one day you’ll be able to see how hard it was for me, I love you”.
His arms around me
His grasp so tight
Oh how I wish he could stay and fight
Later that morning
Or later that night
The noise I awoke to gave me such a fright
There was stillness about
A different air
It lacked something
Something quite fair
I turned around, yet he was still there
But something was different
No wind in his hair
I realised then that this is the end
Of dying embraced with another.
Souls are lost in seconds
They blow away like leaves
The thought of death it beckons
That’s what he used to say
Well, before the day he went away
He tossed and turned that lonesome night
But I was none the wiser
I wish he could just stay and fight
From the world he was my visor
The last time we spoke
The words stuck in the air
The sunlight, it reflected off his glistening hair
He looked over,
Without a hint of glee
Stating ‘its not easy being just like me’
I knew from that moment
I knew from that day
My friend Billy,
My friend Billy,
He was going away
He knew from that glance
He knew by his stance
He more than others
Would have to pay.
His laughter
His smile
It still lingers for a while
Then shattered by the weight reality pressing down
At this I frown
But nothing can stop the seeping of brown
I say with a sigh
As the years pass me by
That Billy was my significant other
But as people query
Over their negative theory
I just sit and listen
The sun on his hair
Glisten, glisten, glisten.
Some say its fair
They agree that its right
Oh how I wish he could stay and fight
But re-telling the story
Has proved to be gorey
So I just stick to the fact
And stay on the track
So maybe one day
I’ll be able to tell
His story quite well
No more stutters
No more tears
I’m sick of still wishing
He we’re still here
He thought he could fly
All he was fed was a lie
As he jumped, as he twisted
He noticed the life that he resisted
He looked back up and saw the sky
He knew for sure he was to die
But not that day, if not another
For he was saved by his significant other
As I ran, as I flew
I noticed the sky, it was so blue
As he twisted, as he turned
His face was drawn, his eyes were shut, and he knew what he had earned
I stood there and watched him fall
I knew from that moment I had to stand tall
I ran and I swerved, I dodged and I ducked
Physically I was fine, emotionally I was recked
Everything came up all in my head,
As I tucked
As I tucked it away I thought he was dead
But as he fell
And as I ran
I realised something
He couldn’t die
He was already dead
As the sweat trickled down my face
I had to realise my place
I wasn’t here, nor there
Matter of fact, I wasn’t anywhere
This was all a dream
I was quite sure
For he was flying
The lies fed to him were no longer fed by the lying
As he swooped
As he soared
The heavens opened up and roared
He was an angel, sent from above
I was quite sure, he had my love
But then he fell
When he landed he let out a yell
Was I just seeing things?
Or was it all real?
The only thing I knew for sure was what I could feel
The rise of his chest
The fall of his breast
He was there
I was here
Yet he was smiling from ear to ear
He was back
But not for long
He only had time to sing me a song
He sung me to sleep
I couldn’t help but weep
I lay there
He lay near
He became a little voice inside my ear
“I will wait for you, no matter how long it takes, I am here looking over you, now and forever, you are my tether I am you, you are me, I love who you are I love what you’ve made me, maybe one day you’ll be able to see how hard it was for me, I love you”.
His arms around me
His grasp so tight
Oh how I wish he could stay and fight
Later that morning
Or later that night
The noise I awoke to gave me such a fright
There was stillness about
A different air
It lacked something
Something quite fair
I turned around, yet he was still there
But something was different
No wind in his hair
I realised then that this is the end
Of dying embraced with another.