Regret

I don't know what to say or think.
Cause in the end I'm usually wrong.
I tried my best not to sink.
But I was drowing all along.
I guess I ruined everything we had.
I lost your respect and trust.
But you know what's really sad?
That our relationship was purely lust.
You won't believe me or anything I say.
Cause your mother has you under her control.
Sometimes I think I was lucky to get away.
But then I realize without you I'm not whole.
I'm so conflicted on what I should do.
Either move on or stay.
I don't know if I could fully lose you.
Although you're already so far away.
Whenever you call I can't help but cry.
Then you go and say you miss me.
And now I wonder if it was all a lie.
If you felt what I did when you kissed me.
I hesitated to delete our old texts.
Afraid that if I did I'd never remember 'us'.
Now we're caught in this whole mess.
Accusing, lying, and I've almost had enough.
I met someone else, he's nothing like you.
He says he'll care for me and keep me happy.
Yet, I can't tell if it's all true.
I feel like I'm almost replapsing.
You walked out, then ran back in.
Said you cared, and flipped your words.
I'm seriously tired of your emotional shit.
Why won't you go hurt another girl?
Oh yeah, cause I'm 'the one'.
I'm your other half.
Well guess what? I'm done.
I've gotten enough of your crap.

I want you back.
Or maybe I don't.
I feel like I'm having a panic attack.
I just can't leave this alone.
Just tell me it's over.
Tell me we're through.
I hate having the both of us suffer.
Considering all I kinda want is you.
Then again I don't.
I want to completely forget.
And I know if I wont.
It's something I'll regret....