Unwanted Emotions

You’re the one who makes me feel good. The one that makes me feel like everything is right. Yet, everyday you are the one who makes me cry. The one who makes me wish I didn’t feel this way. I feel like these feelings I harbor are evil. Like a demon possessing me until I am no longer the girl I once was. I know you don’t know this, nor will you ever know it. It doesn’t hurt any less. Like you should be reading my mind. For being so close, I’ve never felt so alone and empty. Forgive me, for I am beginning to understand my instinct of avoidance. Here, I am diving into the cold water, hoping the quiet sound of the waves above will soothe my aching and trembling soul.