The Demon Inside

Sitting alone in the darkness
I can almost hear my own heart beating
It’s like a time bomb
Ticking life away
Where do I go from here?
Should I go, or should I stay?
Falling through a hole, I fall
Down I go
Can’t seem to end it all

Where were you when I needed you so?
I can’t stay, I can’t be
While I’m walking on my own
Do you know how much it hurts?
Can you feel what I feel when I’m alone?

I feel so fucking broken at times
I can’t see the light
This demon keeps making itself known
It wants me dead and so very alone
I want to give in but something brings me to the surface.
You come to me when I’m on the edge
But what if you don’t make it next time?
Can I still keep my grip on the ledge
Or will I fail and see the end?

I can’t take this anymore
I’m gonna leave and lock the door
This damn noose around my neck won’t loosen its grip
He’s surfacing now, making himself known once more
I’m crying out your name (save me, now)
But I don’t think you’re hearing me this time
I honestly don’t think you’ll get to me this time
Just let me go, Just leave me be
All I’ve ever wanted is to be free