Heart, Body, Mind

I want my tears to shine like diamonds
As they reflect the light from my computer screen
I want to stop wanting to feel wanted by others
And just be wanted by me

I want to pick up my late night depression
And fling it from my hands
I want all of my fears and anxieties
To drip from me as I take a stand

I want the sad songs deep in my soul to stop
As they make me feel more insecure
I want to stop thinking to myself
Why can't my voice be more like hers

I want to love myself completely
And not with this falsehood that I pretend
I want my self worth to seem priceless
Before I ever fall in love again

I want to trace my scarred skin
And not think of what could have been
I want to instead embrace them
And to see how I have grown instead

I want to kiss the lips of a stranger
And not later feel the shame
I want to explore my sexuality
And learn that love is not a game

I want to stop all the bad thoughts
That always bring me down
I want to stomp all of my demons
Until they're imprints on the ground

I want to drive away the monsters
That say make your parents proud
I want to instead do things for me
And not for others in the crowd

I want to finally be happy
And not just some false pretense
I want my heart, body, and mind
To join together once again