Telling The Truth.

I have nothing to gain,
Nothing to lose,
So I'll tell you
the truth.

I waited,
For each guy to leave,
I waited,
I hoped,
I think I hoped
that you would
love me back.

You were the best friend
I had ever had,
You made my skin
fit just right.

Hopefully, you weren't
so oblivious not
to see,
I fell in love with you.
I love you still,
And I miss you,
So much,
It aches.

I'm not sure why,
But you placed me
on a pedestal,
Didn't see, wouldn't see,
My dirty, filthy hands.

And as people go,
You could be so bitchy
and you were so
fucked up,
But all I could do,
Was love you more.

I hate myself,
For wishing you had fought,
For wishing
you to sink your claws in,
And bring me back
to you,
Where I want to be.

This truth is deserved,
For all I wished
that had been,
For all I didn't say.

I love you.
I miss you.
You still make me cry,
This is what you
couldn't bear to say,
This is goodbye.