Black

I have to wonder
If I am alone
In feeling the way that I do

When hope disappears
And energy goes
And black encroaches on blue

And I’m sitting alone
All by myself
With no energy left to cry

And giving a stare
Blankly ahead
As dimly I’m wondering why

I used to feel great
I used to see color
I used to just jump for joy

But now as I sit
Alone on the earth
My emotions must just be a toy

I know that still
I could simply just
Be once again crying for naught

But as a single
Tear starts to fall
I can feel my throat become caught

I remember when
I’d be with my friends
They’d walk with me and hold my hand

And if I did need
A gentle hug
They’d give one and help me to stand

And yet now I feel
Just so alone
I’m wondering if they’ve all left

Of all of that friendship
That I so deeply needed
Now I’m afraid I feel bereft

They no longer wish
To see or to talk
To me ever once anymore

I guess that the text
The way of the future
Is what they all wish to explore

And it does break my heart
Which was already cracked
It shatters it beyond repair

But it doesn’t matter
‘Cause neither do I
And now I simply cease to care

You know I write letters
I write them a lot
I have now for quite a long time

I’ve never gotten one back
Never had one returned
Now that is judgment divine