I Dreamed I Died

I dreamed I died last night
Against the backdrop of my family’s bodies
And a man in black with a cold voice
Put a piece of metal against my head
And for a moment I thought no
I am not ready, not old enough, not ready to die
But then I thought of Heaven and I smiled
He pulled the trigger

And I watched my kneeling body fall, fall into oblivion
Darkness took place of light
And I was without form, without body, but not without thought
I drifted for a while, floating in the black emptiness
Until a sudden thought came
I am still here, I am still here
My life has gone, fragile as the insignificant flame of a candle in the winter winds
But I am still here, remaining

As this thought surrounded my trembling existence
An angel came, and he led me to Heaven
Faceless but loving and kind, hand almost human against mine
For I found I had a body as well as a mind
I do not remember Heaven, but I know it was beautiful
I asked where God was and he smiled
“Tonight you will meet him. Tonight.
We are feasting in your honor.”

I was not scared, nor alone, for I knew they would come
Those I had loved in life, here to bring me home
Those I had loved in life, loving even after life
And eternity stretched out before me with its whispering promises
A brief moment of regret, for that which I did not do
Write a book, graduate, fall in love, have a child
But then it drew back into earthly confines
For here was Heaven and I could not feel remorse for life

I do not remember Heaven, but I know it was beautiful