Only One

I don't know how many times this has happened
During this summer alone
Doing something like usual and then
Out of the blue
It hits me
That I am nothing

You can do nothing
There is nothing that you can do
That someone can't do better
There is nothing that you can accomplish
That hasn't been accomplished already
There is nothing special about you.

Or is that just me?
Of course it's not.
It's
Never
Just
Me.

And those people
At least they have someone
To love them.

I have no one
I have nothing
I am nothing
And I hate feeling this way
But it's true
And I know it

And at least I admit it
Albeit, too much
But I can't help it
If you knew what it was like
You'd be the same.

Do you even know?
Do you even know what it's like?
Of course you do.
It's never just me.

Am I the only one who can't cry
Who wants to? Needs to?
But is left sighing?

I can't cry
Even though the lump in my throat
And in my chest
Begs me to
I try and I try
But to no avail.
But it doesn't matter
Because I guess
I'm not the only one.