....

Ive held on for so long that my hands growing weak
My words have gone unheard for so long i can no longer speak
All the efforts that i have put forth brushed off as cheap

I swore i wouldn't do this again,
i knew i couldn't go through this again
this time it wouldn't be any different but i couldn't help but pretend
maybe this was just something i needed
to do to help me step closer to the edge
i think i just wanted to see more clearly that i do really need this all to end
.....ive tryed so fucking hard to just sit back and mend
but this evil inside keeps bringing me closer and closer to death