Wish Upon a Star

I wish I could say that I'm calming down
That I'm getting better and coming around
I wish there was a way I could put this lightly
A way to not seem insane and explain in nicely
I wish there was some hope for me
That some day in the future I'd truly be happy
But all the shooting stars and wishing wells
All the potions and magic spells
Wont help any of this come to be
And thats the hardest part for me
Even all the fantasy lives I live in my head
Dont put a smile on my face before bed
Even the blood dripping down
Doesnt turn this frown around
All the fights and screaming have left my throat sore
I dont know if I can take much more
All I know is that at the moment I'm still here
And thats what keeps me in gear