don't

i don’t know anymore it seems. i don’t want to know anymore, because this, this is all just a broken dream. a replay, a reminder of what my life really is, no matter how much i pretend.

wow, you must really love me.
wow, you must really hate me.
wow, can i just wake from this dream,

or maybe sleep some more, fall deeper into the darkness that not even darkness itself can touch me.

what am i even saying, what am i even thinking.
i can’t go away, you won’t let me, i see.

so i guess i’ll just sit here and wallow in my pain as you cast down rain to cover up my shame.