Blue

I’ve always kinda wanted to be dead,
Six feet under the ground
But now I’m here with you instead,
Spinning in thoughts to drown.
And everybody thinks they’re someone’s victim;
Everybody thinks they’re a tragedy
Everybody’s got their own big secrets
Everybody’s on the edge of their seats.
And me?
Oh baby, I’m shameless.

I’ll take my little pills;
Go drown in your misery.

I must keep everything blue
I don’t wanna know you
Have me, have not, have you
We’re haunted, we’re dead
Left to sleep with our heads, yeah
High on air, breathing it in
The permanent taste of sin
Have me, have not, have you, you, you, you!

So I take your sweaty hand in mine
You’re warm, without a sound
Fingers in L-shapes on our heads
Loving losers all around.
And everybody thinks we’re holding hearts
Everybody gives us sympathy
Everybody’s got their stupid little reasons
Everybody’s gotta sneak a peek.
But me?
Baby, I’m witless.

Baby, I’m shameless
Oh no, I am witless
Hey hey, we are weightless
Oh god, we’re so clueless

Baby, we’re ageless
Wish I was fearless
Wish this was painless
Hey, we are reckless

‘Cause we’re blushing, we’re red
Orange peel skin we have shed
Yellow sun beating on our heads
Green naïve, that’s what she said

Baby blue, I think I’m dead
Baby blue, get in my head
Baby blue, hangin’ by a thread
Baby blue, baby blue…

I must keep everything blue
I don’t wanna know you
Have me, have not, have you
We’re green and we’re red
Stuck inside our own heads
I’m high on you, breathe you in
That oh so sweet taste of your skin
Have me, have not, have you!
Have me, have not, have you!
I’ll hold my breath ‘till I turn blue!
♠ ♠ ♠
I actually picture Soria singing this song, despite Ren being the singer for Plaster Caster, but whatevs, you know?
I wrote this in September 2011 right when me and my boyfriend were right about to start dating and we kept throwing all these signs at each other and we'd shamelessly flirt but of course we'd never own up to it at the time, haha. This song's about denial, basically. Pushing someone away and trying to convince yourself that they don't like you like you like them so that you don't end up hurt. There's actually a lot of imagery in this song that's sort of specific to me and my boyfriend and our lives, too.