I'm a Homicidal Maniac

I carved
Worthless into my arm
I watched the blood
Drip like my sanity
Oh, now I've died
Like my melting mind
On a summers death
Home sweet homicide
Tortured with pain
Won't wake up again
Can't
Bye
I will let you down
I know it
I need to
To stay true
To my nature
My eyes are hungry
And ready to hurt
And I love you so much
I'll kill her quick
For you
Because you fucked me over
By kissing her
Touching her
Fucking her
Everything you asshole
But i deserved it
I knew it was to come
I needed it
Worthless, I am
Not
Good
Enough
For you
Ever
And I mean to hurt her
Because she's perfect
With perfect hair
And brains
And smile
And friends
Perfect life
A perfect lie
That I yearn to have
And Billie scream that mercy
Gimme a place to fucking belong
In this nothingness
This blank state
This aloneness that I have
Make it better
But you can't
You'll die one day
You don't love me
You love her
Adrienne--perfection
And where should I stand
In the minds of the ones
The ones I love and cherish
The lucky as fuck ones
The ones
I'm no one to them
To him.
Aero I'm sorry
For this--me
This poem
This monster I am
For wasting your time
You're precious as fuck time
I'm sorry for me
I want to end me
Homicide, suicide
Somebody save me
From life, this bloody hell
Save me from people
From him, her, them, we
Everyone and everything
This depression is too great
This life--too long
Everything is too much
His shirtless mess
His arms
Smile...
The way he spoke to me
When time stood still
When worlds collided
When I laughed so hard I cried
Today
The music attempts to heal
Nothing
I ain't broken
Or messed up
I'm me
A homicidal maniac