Hidden Message.

Th(i)ngs shou(l)dn't have turned (o)ut this way.
Ele(v)en days until Christmas
And I want(e)d to cry m(y)self to sleep.
I knew (y)ou were hurting.
And I knew the things (o)ther's never heard about.
So why can't I (u)nderstand
Why you killed yourself?
-k.m.s-