Ugly

I knew it from the beginning
Really, it was just a feeling
A reminder of my rotten self
The corpse you smell on my breath

Ugly, so ugly, so very very ugly
And the reflection of the mirror
isn't who I wish to see
But a sad and lonely girl
Who can't trust, can't believe

Rotten, so rotten, so very fucking rotten
I hate myself and I'm sorry
I can't hear you when you say
I'm a fool for thinking so

And I hate it, I hate me
I know I shouldn't do this
And my cuts won't help me through it
I just don't wish to go on

Ugly, so ugly, so very fucking ugly
Whilst the red stains the bathtub
I'm just thinking of myself
Oh, I know I'll go to hell