"Real World"

But I think you're so mean! I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
And I think I'm scared! I think too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealing
And this is my apology
I killed myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out

And I wished for things that I don't need
And what I chased won't set me free
And I get scared but I'm not crawlin' on my knees
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?
Did you get to be a star?
And don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are?

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's no surprise to me
I am my own worst enemy
Every now and then I kick the living shit out of me

Everyone here's to blame!
Everyone here gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides!
Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're the same!
...And we don't know how to get it back to good
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
I don't know, oh, I don't know
I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older, I'm getting older, too
Yes, I'm getting older, too

So why you gotta stand there, looking like the answer, now?
It seems to me, you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out?
That I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone, in this mad season

If I were someone else, would this all fall apart?
Strange, where were you when we started this gig?
I wish the real world would just stop hassling me
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am

It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
Am I just stoned?
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how
Because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall