Buried Deep Within

Hurtful words ringing in my ears, hidden emotions, buried fears, surface with endless tears.
I've had this fake smile for 10 years, I've lied about every scar buried deep within my wrists to all my peers.
I wish they could see my pain, I wish I wasn't so fucking insane.
My heart has been ripped apart, by everyone I ever loved, that's the worst part.
Blood trickles down my wrist and spills on my guitar, soon it'll just be another scar.
I wish upon every star, wishing I could live somewhere far.
Death wants me, it calls my name, if only I wasn't always to blame.
This blade sings to me a lullaby, even though I know every note is just another lie,
I cant help but indulge myself by staring deep into the blades shimmer, I feel as if the blade represents who I am, but only a glimmer.
With each passing day my heart beat grows slower, and my self-worth just withers lower.
My heart has been ready to blow, since such a long time ago.