The Ex

Consider this me pouring out my feelings to you.

Now that we’re through, these words of mine are long overdue.

I feel as though all you wanted to do was screw, it was as though I was trash, perhaps that’s why you threw me away.

You were a bitch through and fucking through,

now I hope you don’t misconstrue what this means;

then again I’m sure you won’t, just in case though; Get a fucking clue!

I never want to renew what we had, I wish to start anew away from you, you fucking shrew.

The worst part of it were your views; everything was always taboo, yet you sure in the fuck did it all and enjoyed it; afterwards it was somehow my fault.

Something went wrong; It was my fault by default.

You sometimes liked to verbally assault, yet I put up with it.

But you know what? I refuse to let it bring me down anymore.

You once put me down, called me stupid. Well guess what? I’m quite profound and I’m tired of being pushed around.

I’m not weak, for I will rebound; I’ll bounce fucking back.

When I do become world renowned I hope it feels like a fucking smack.

You left me all because you couldn’t see, just what I could be.

You’re a fucking bitch, not just my opinion; many agree.

I’m quite glad that I’m finally free.

I’m no longer yours to claim. Then again I know that to you it was all just a game.

You never felt the same, I was just an animal to tame.

Let’s be honest here though, you were the one who was fucking lame,

always bitching and whining about how bad sex was; yet you always fucking came.

You were always sadistic, wanting to maim me and shit,

then I said fuck it and grew out of the frame that you were holding me within, that’s when you decided to toss me away.

See though that’s okay because I became something more than you could handle.
See sweety, compared to me you don’t hold a fucking candle!

I’m sure some of you are probably thinking that I’m trying to simply trying to defame,

But I assure you she isn’t a fucking dame that needs your protection.

She’s a new species of bitch; an infection that’s quickly taking over the earth.

I’ve become a new man; this is my rebirth. I wish I could say I no longer have any affection,

But come on now; just thinking about your body gives me an erection.

We both know you’re not the only sadist; you’re a sadist but I’m a fucking demon.

Now let’s take a moment to be honest; you’re a slut who enjoys the taste of semen,

oops I probably shouldn’t say that right? Considering you think that’s so fucking taboo too,

but let’s be real; it’s completely true. So take the stick out of your stuck up ass, and shove it down your throat so you can choke on it.

I’m just so sick and tired of your shit! You pushed me back into this pit where I continue to sit.
But guess what? I’m fucking thriving down here in the darkness all alone with my thoughts, my anger and my pain.

I’ll admit it, yeah I’m fucked in the brain quite fucking insane,

But at least to myself true is what I remain.

Even when I’ve lost it, I always make sure to retain enough of myself so that I can regain control and throw my monster back into the pit in my mind. The monster you see is very profane, it takes quite a strain just to restrain.

Yet whenever I went submissive so that I could contain it better you met me with complete disdain, and only sought to complain.

But guess what? I’ve got control now and I can maintain. Now that I’m in full control, I’ve realized you’ve held me back. All you were to my life was a stain, and now that you’re gone I’ll reach heights higher than you’d ever imagine, I’ll be the one to reign.

I’ll rule over you like a god and unlike you I won’t be a fraud.

All you ever were was a fake, a slithering snake that was willing to break my heart in order to take whatever you wanted, but above all you were a mistake.

You are nothing to me anymore, other than a fucking whore.

Someone I stuck my dick in for a moment in time; at the time though it felt utterly sublime. Then you felt out of your prime in your eyes and you blamed me; no matter how much I told you that you were beautiful you wished to see my demise.

This is the reason that you left, I surmise. Though the truth is that I never knew the real you, I only knew the disguise. For me it was like winning a prize, you were a goddess but now that the mask is gone I can see the snake eyes that I despise.

Now that I know the real you I have one thing to advise,

Never fuck with me again, for I’ve broken my addiction, so now it’s time for a fucking eviction;
kicking you out of my heart. Now that we are apart it’s finally time for me to give my heart a jump start.

I’m sure you’re thinking that what I’m saying is simply my depiction, but nope! This is all non-fucking fiction!

You were but an infliction, my love for you was an affliction; a curse which was rather funny considering you wanted to become a nurse. That’s a contradiction, quite the reverse; a nurse that enjoys causing pain and dishes out the curse rather than healing, I don’t know how you could be a nurse as you’d be stealing, and dealing. The prospect of murder would be too appealing, just admit it; you’re just as psychotic as I am, just as unfeeling.

What the fuck is up with that shit? Either way I won’t submit.

I’m serious in my conviction; my heart and very being is no longer within your jurisdiction.

Now I’m not a big fan on hitting women or anyone in that aspect, but someone needs to put you in your place. Then again I have no worries; time will do it for me. For you see, your pretty face will fade and you’ll lose your disguise. People will see the true ugliness that you hide, the real you inside.
So you better take your time, embrace the beauty while it lasts; but be prepared for what’s to come and brace yourself.

Also you’re bisexual tendencies will eventually come out to your family, glad I’m completely open about myself.

But once they know then what? You’ll be a disgrace, but hey I never judged you; then again you say I was easy to replace. The only thing I wish to do is to erase you from my life; I want to end this strife.
You wish ignore your past and just hide, but that doesn’t work for me, after all the times I’ve cried, after all the times I’ve wished I had died because of how much you had lied.

After all the times you had been snide, allowing your pride to get the best of you; I never lied. Whenever I cheated I was honest about it, like fuck I made a mistake but at least I learned and grew from it; you’re still doing the same ole shit.

Just know that when your looks do fade, I’ll be reigning from above as an immortal making you wish that you had stayed. But thank you because you were the one that created the portal that changed me from being mortal; you gave me the strength I needed to succeed.

Just know that whenever you read this that I will continue to proceed, And in order to exceed everyone’s expectations I won’t allow anyone to impede or mislead me.

So yeah I may have been played, betrayed and delayed but your plans were mislaid and although they did degrade me to an extent, I no longer love the person that you portrayed.

I’m ripping the love out of my heart like ripping off a fucking band-aid. Do I need first aid? Don’t worry about me because anywhere I go from here would be an upgrade. I hope that this has adequately conveyed, what I’ve been afraid to say all this time; I hate the personality that you’ve displayed, and I’m tired of this fucking parade, this god damn charade. I know one thing and that’s that you’ve been the worst thing for me in this recent fucking decade. I promise that you’ll wish that you had never strayed. Every other man will feel like a downgrade.

And although my love has decayed I still feel hate. I’m sorry I’m expressing this late, but at this rate perhaps it is fate. Because I’m tired of the way you dictate, of the way you’re always so irate. I used to think that you were my soul mate, but update! Let’s get one thing fucking straight! I may have been a fool that you used as a fucking tool. But ya know what? You’re just a fucking ghoul, who I’ll use as fuel to rise above this despair.

For all those men out there who want to be with her I have one thing to say; beware. She’s like a monster waiting in her lair, A venus fly trap trying to ensnare, a siren hooking you with her stare. So while you’re listening to this dear go ahead and glare while you sit in your fucking chair, but don’t dare even try to say that you care because you only wished to tear at my fucking heart and my fucking soul. But now I’m out of your control because I finally feel whole. To my new love you don’t even compare, so let me declare that I’m fucking done!

So now that the real me has come out my life has actually begun. You can continue trying to run from your problems but I can’t be outrun, for you will be outdone. You better be glad that you’ve had your fun because my immortality is ensured. Knowing that has made me assured that all that I’ve endured won’t be for naught. But this is over now because I’m sure that my lesson was taught, and I know it won’t be forgot.