How You Changed Christmas

I looked into your eyes tonight
But you looked through me
like I couldn’t be real; like I wasn’t alive anymore
Even though I hoped you would have remembered.

I shook your hand tonight
and it was warm
But you seemed disgusted
Even though I hoped you would have forgotten.

I said “Merry Christmas” to you tonight
hoping that at least you were happy without me
But when you said it back, it was empty
like your eyes and your hand and your heart
Even though I hoped you were still there
while I loved.

11:11 p.m.

24/12/2013