Truths I Will Never Tell

1. you are the reason for most of my scars
2. i only avoid you if the noise in my head gets too loud
3. i don’t know how to stop being sad
4. it’s easier to write how i feel than to say it
5. some days i’d rather just bury my head under my pillow and not come out
6. there are days when a choking feeling rises in my throat and i just swallow it away
7. there are days that doesn’t work
8. some nights i bury my face in my elbow so that no one will hear me cry
9. i don’t use razors because i don’t trust myself with them
10. i’ve never had a friend who hasn’t ditched me for someone else
11. sometimes i just want to run
12. i’m still waiting for it to get better