Friend or Foe?

I see you need help
but I just turn my head.
I think you’ll be okay or so I say
what am I
friend or foe
I envy you, I hate you
but I love you too
I cared for you ,I've hurt you
I say I won’t make the same mistakes
but really
I just do
I blame it on you
Its all just the same really
When its all just my doings
So what am I
A friend or a foe