I Must Be Lying

Sometimes I wish I could admit things
Even if it's all just a lie
Sometimes I wish I could forget things
But memories never die
I let myself drown in insanity
I can't find my personality
A demon has taken over
It's like I'm drunk but sober
The world around me twists and turns
My heart inside me bleeds and burns
The people I thought I knew
Have turned against me, I had no clue
I can't remember the days or the past
But it doesn't matter, my days here won't last
You see, I've got something on my mind
Something known as suicide
A solution for the one I cannot find
Just to put my life aside
A solution for the problem I cannot solve
When everything around me seems to dissolve
Should I be a friend and care in return?
Or should my emotions simmer and burn?
Why does this even matter really?
It's just stupid and silly
I sit around as life continues
My life is pointless, there is no use
I'm tired of trying
Yeah, I'm smiling
But inside I'm dying
I must be lying.