Insane

I lay down on this bed with a knife in my fist where, did I go wrong?
Tired of wishing for all the futile results can, this all end now?
Day by day I keep pulling this weight but, I can't go long
Something's have become so fucking dark and, I feel so lost.

Everything on my mind is dying I don't know where to go, I fear if I stay like this I’ll break down and, lose myself for good.
I fight for life as I stay on my toes in my anxious state, though I try and try I keep close to myself and hope I don't get lost.

This bed of ashes will be my grave as I, burn into the dark.
Easily will my body be torn down with, the strength of a god.
What did you think would become of me when, I said I'd be gone?
You never tried to understand me but, yet you tore my heart.

Everything on my mind is dying I don't know where to go, I fear if I stay like this I'll break down and, lose myself for good.
I fight for life as I stay on my toes in my anxious state, though I try and try I keep close to myself and hope I don't get lost.

I feel myself drifting away from you.
I feel my heart losing control of my own pulse.
I feel myself losing this war that's in my head
I feel myself losing everything as I lay down on this bed.

Everything on my mind is dying I don't know where to go, I fear if I stay like this I'll break down and, lose myself for good.
I fight for life as I stay on my toes in my anxious state, though I try and try I keep close to myself and hope I don't get lost.

I cannot win.