Mindful of Fear

How can I put the way
My heart is cracking
Into words?

I can feel the tears inside
Just as you see the tears
Fall down my flushed cheeks

I know I may be overthinking this
But I don't want you
As a person in my past

As a thought, a memory
An ache in my chest in the place
You used to have a hold on

And the future should be
The easiest promise
You have to make,

Like breathing,
You should be around
For as long as it takes

To shake these thoughts out
Of a mind full of fear
That a happy ending will never get here.