A Circle of Nothing

45 degrees of affliction,
45 degrees of worthlessness,
30 degrees of hallucinations
or better days and places,
and 60 degrees of self-hate addiction.

another 90 degrees for the smiles i fake,
and 45 for the risks i never take,
and the last 45 for the world i am too scared to see

360 degrees,
a circle of nothing,
but disgust for myself