Pain

Pain

Watching the rain as it pours from the sky;
Thoughts running through my head that I should die.
Serious as it may be, I don't need help;
You won't ever hear a peep out of me, not even a yelp.
I don't cut or anything like that;
I would if I was a little emo brat.
It's stupid & pointless. Just die. That's it;
Then no one would throw a fit.
It'd be all over & done. Right then & there;
Although you'd never know who really cared.
I just want it all to end. Just make it go away;
I don't want the thoughts. I don't wanna stay.
I hope this gets better because I can't take much more;
Why do I even have to deal with this for?
Scared of what's to come & afraid of being alone;
Never wanted this or the broken home.
I've come to know this pain as agonzing as it seems;
I always hated the way you would haunt my dreams.
Too much to bear all at once & not enough to leave behind;
Maybe I'm just too emotionally inclined.
No one shares my views or thoughts;
I'm always the one wishing he'll rot.
Hatred fills my soul & overflows onto my life;
Can't ever just be happy. Too much trouble & strife.
Shoot me down & pretend you're the innocent one;
I've tarnished my name & now you hold the gun.
It eats me alive how fake you are;
Now all that's left is an ugly fucking scar.
I wish I could ruin your life the way you ruined mine;
I have to pretend it's all good & everything is fine.

Ah, fuck it all...