Regrets

I didn't get to say goodbye
I didn't get to tell you how proud I was
I didn't get to tell you
That I looked up to everything you did

You were sick
But you could walk again
You could drive again
You could run again

I didn't see it coming
But I regret it everyday
A week before you passed
You invited me to coffee

I said I was busy
I didn't know that was our last time to speak
If I could say anything
I would say I'm sorry

You mean the world to me
Even though I didn't show it when you were alive
You put me first even though I didn't do the same for you
I need you more than ever

I don't deserve your presence
Your time, your appearance in my dreams
I miss you so much
And I can't bring you back