This Cold Beat

Feel this cold beat in my heart,
Am I done yet? Well no I'm not.

It's surely worth a restart?
When I have what I've got.

See this smile on my face,
Walking at a safe pace.

I ain't running away today,
This game I'll sure play.

I won't cheat,
This cold beat,
Will show lies,
In these eyes.

I shan't sink any further down,
I won't make you laugh tonight.

I can't be your foolish clown,
Because I now have my sight.

I see a beautiful sea,
Where all can be,
Ever so mesmerizing,
Lights so captivating.

They shine brighter than I remember,
Last Christmas on a cold December.

But my main present wasn't gold,
It wasn't snow that made me cold.

My main gift was realizing,
I should be compromising.

And the reason why I felt a chill,
Was because I'd seen blood spill.

I shouldn't have taken the knife,
Believed I was never alive,
How ignorant was I back then?
I'd always fall down again.

Yet that cold beat,
Reminded me,
How I will defeat,
What I now see.

No looks can have me cry,
For this heart will stay alive.

And even when I die,
I can still live my life.

I will live in songs,
Fixing my wrongs,
I will grow wings,
From these things.

Even though I'm afraid,
I will fly away someday,
And I shall never fade,
Or have my heart stray.

Beauty will be no matter,
As long as it remains within.

Glass may as well shatter,
For I can always heal my sin.

And this cold beat,
Will have me,
Run with these feet,
Till I reach the sea.

This warming heart,
Will have me restart.

For I am beautiful inside,
That is why I shan't hide.

Because I know always,
I'll live out my days,
And I'll rejoice, my friend,
Keep smiling 'till the end.

I won't admit defeat,
Because this cold beat,
Will remind me,
That I'm always free.

I carry no chain,
No need for pain.

And I can be what I wish to be,
I am free to sail this blue sea.

For in this world, I can be me...