Best Friends
18 years and a lifetime’s past
I’ve met millions and most of them passed
I expected at least one of you to stay
But here we are
How does it feel to have this song written about you?
To know what you put me through?
So much for a friend
Everything that we’ve did together
I didn’t ask much for what I did for you
Especially this knife
But don’t worry
I’m saving it for you
In 5 10 or 15 years
I’ll make you face all your fears
I'll lock you in this room and drag them over your skin
I'll watch the life pour out of you
You didn’t need it
You didn’t deserve it.
Does this make you see how you made me feel
I sent so much time lost in my thoughts, drowning in my sorrows
I’ll use this time to return the favor
Ill make you see the red that I saw
While it drains from you
In 5 10 or 15 years
I’ll make you face all your fears
I'll lock you in this room and drag them over your skin
I'll watch the life pour out of you
You didn’t need it
You didn’t deserve it.
I want you to feel as hopeless as I did
Know that no one is going to save you
Feel like the useless disgusting waste I did
Know that no one cares about you
And then while the light approaches and then fades from your eyes.
Remember that knife.
I saved it for you
5 10 or 15 years
I made you face your fears
I'll drown you with them and make your skin crawl
I'll watch the light fade from your eyes
And you deserve this
I’ve met millions and most of them passed
I expected at least one of you to stay
But here we are
How does it feel to have this song written about you?
To know what you put me through?
So much for a friend
Everything that we’ve did together
I didn’t ask much for what I did for you
Especially this knife
But don’t worry
I’m saving it for you
In 5 10 or 15 years
I’ll make you face all your fears
I'll lock you in this room and drag them over your skin
I'll watch the life pour out of you
You didn’t need it
You didn’t deserve it.
Does this make you see how you made me feel
I sent so much time lost in my thoughts, drowning in my sorrows
I’ll use this time to return the favor
Ill make you see the red that I saw
While it drains from you
In 5 10 or 15 years
I’ll make you face all your fears
I'll lock you in this room and drag them over your skin
I'll watch the life pour out of you
You didn’t need it
You didn’t deserve it.
I want you to feel as hopeless as I did
Know that no one is going to save you
Feel like the useless disgusting waste I did
Know that no one cares about you
And then while the light approaches and then fades from your eyes.
Remember that knife.
I saved it for you
5 10 or 15 years
I made you face your fears
I'll drown you with them and make your skin crawl
I'll watch the light fade from your eyes
And you deserve this
♠ ♠ ♠
So the story here is that I usually go out on a limb for all of my friends but just recently my best friend of 2 years turned on me. She told me I was never a real friend to her and all this other horrible stuff. Up until now I haven't really had any feelings towards what happened.
A different person sent me a screen shot of her twitter where she was posting pictures from the time I got her favorite band to hang out with her for an entire day, calling it "the best day of her life". There were also pictures of her first tattoo that I paid for as her 18th birthday present and it's her" favorite physical feature". Then the next post after that is her saying how she always hated me and I don't deserve friends.
I saw red.
There's a hole in my wall and I needed to sit down and write for a bit or else I would have hurt myself. This is the outcome. I guess tell me what you think? I don't really care though, it's not a good piece, just some feelings.
Thanks for reading.