Luring Me Home

I sit down slowly on my bed
Breathe deep as I clear my head
These emotions run deep in me
I wish you could only see
The fear, the sadness, the pain reside
Underneath this thick hide
A hole is there that may never fill
My head is fucked up even still
If I told you everything you may run
I couldn't blame you, I should be shunned
Sometimes I dream that I'm still there
In that hospital, with that blank stare
I still remember my razor's love
How that was all I thought of
I can feel the breeze play with my hair
From when I'd stand the midnight air
Alone with only the moon and stars
My wrists covered in cuts and scars
How can I tell you I miss that day
How can I tell you I wanted to stay
In love with my deep misery
Inside still lies dark mystery
Unsolved, untouched, unseen
Bold and vivid like your worst dream
Do I tell you what's inside my head
The man inside isn't yet dead
And he's luring me back home