Caffeine Highs and Butterflies
I fall asleep tonight
A little older and I
Can't stand the way I hold my head
I'm feeling sorry for me
I whisper silently
"Maybe I'd be better off as dead"
God I miss coming home with
sweat-stained shirts and sunburnt shoulders
When things were fine
And I was bolder
Now I stand
Shocked and surprised
With caffeine highs and butterflies
To watch you fade away
This isn't happening
While I'm still battling
I can't make one fucking mistake
For moments never had
I want to take it back
Wondering why I have to be awake
God I miss coming home with
sweat-stained shirts and sunburnt shoulders
When things were fine
And I was bolder
Now I stand
Shocked and surprised
With caffeine highs and butterflies
To watch you fade away
I can't say I blame you
But I can beg you stay
I know I'm pathetic
So fucking pathetic
Please don't let this decay
I can't say I blame you
But I can beg you stay
I know I'm pathetic
So fucking pathetic
Please don't let this decay
God I miss coming home with
sweat-stained shirts and sunburnt shoulders
When things were fine
And I was bolder
Now I stand
Shocked and surprised
With caffeine highs and butterflies
To watch you fade away
I fall asleep tonight
A little older and I
Can't stand the way I hold my head
A little older and I
Can't stand the way I hold my head
I'm feeling sorry for me
I whisper silently
"Maybe I'd be better off as dead"
God I miss coming home with
sweat-stained shirts and sunburnt shoulders
When things were fine
And I was bolder
Now I stand
Shocked and surprised
With caffeine highs and butterflies
To watch you fade away
This isn't happening
While I'm still battling
I can't make one fucking mistake
For moments never had
I want to take it back
Wondering why I have to be awake
God I miss coming home with
sweat-stained shirts and sunburnt shoulders
When things were fine
And I was bolder
Now I stand
Shocked and surprised
With caffeine highs and butterflies
To watch you fade away
I can't say I blame you
But I can beg you stay
I know I'm pathetic
So fucking pathetic
Please don't let this decay
I can't say I blame you
But I can beg you stay
I know I'm pathetic
So fucking pathetic
Please don't let this decay
God I miss coming home with
sweat-stained shirts and sunburnt shoulders
When things were fine
And I was bolder
Now I stand
Shocked and surprised
With caffeine highs and butterflies
To watch you fade away
I fall asleep tonight
A little older and I
Can't stand the way I hold my head