Patrick

how long must i go
living like this in despair
this loneliness that is consuming me
threatening to swallow me whole
the one thing i want
is miles away
out of reach
like an angel of misery
he lives in my soul
he follows me everywhere
yet, i miss him , somehow
the one for you
if he leaves
can you find another angel of joy
or
are you stuck
stuck desperately waiting
with the angel of misery
my heart
pumping so fast
i cant breathe
looking past my face
what have I become ?
I have become like you
irritable
a complex creature
my angel
Patrick
i still call your name
though i know
you will never answer
so please , patrick
let me borrow those wings
I want to sleep forever
and even though i know you can never come back
i stand here waiting
calling your name
Patrick
come home...