As I Sit Here in the Dark

As I sit here in the dark
I begin to wonder
If I even belong in your life
As I sit here in the dark
I realize that I don't know you
I don't know you at all
I haven't met your family
Your friends
It's like I'm some used sex toy
A toy that you don't use anymore.
I don't know who you are
I'm not quite sure you know
Who you really are

As I sit here in the dark
I begin to wonder
Where I'm going to fit in your life
As I sit here in the dark
I realize that I shouldn't have to fight for a place,
A place in your life,
A place in your heart.
You claim to love me
Lately you've been saying it less frequently
You claim to love me
But I don't hear from you everyday.

Do you love me?

As I sit here in the dark
I begin to wonder
Who I am compared to you
As I sit here in the dark
I realize that you have different personalities
Different personalities based on situation
Based on location
You live two different lives
One here with me
One somewhere far away...

And I don't know how to get there.

As I sit here in the dark
I begin to wonder
If you truly love me
As I sit here in the dark
I realize that if you truly loved me you would let me in
But you don't let anyone in

You never have.

As I sit here in the dark
I begin to wonder
Why you close yourself off from the world
As I sit here in the dark
I realize that I don't have all the answers
And neither do you

You coward.