Thoughts at 12:21am

I want to hate you.
I want to forget you ever existed.
I want to unmeet you.
I want to move forward,
not knowing that you can make me feel like this.

But I want to wake up with a message from you,
I want to turn back the clock
and have you say you miss me too.
I want you to surprise me
by showing up at my house
with your boyish smile and gentle hands.

I want to know how it's possible for
one person to make me feel so much,
both good and bad.