After a While

And then when I thought I’d had it mastered
She leaks through the cracks of the main disaster
My heart is too slow, wish my head was faster
She echoes my thoughts, it only gets louder

I’m showing restraint, so far it’s been moot
The glow on her name catches my shifting mood
I never stay strong to the things I choose
Instead I just hope to see her again soon

The night and the song, a pretty good match
Unlike the rest of them, she’s in fact quite a catch
And that stupid fuck boy, in the way with the batch
I don’t say a thing, so my words can be scratched

I don’t care who he is or what she likes him for
It just keeps me awake ‘till it’s dark around four
And I can’t do a thing, can’t keep asking for more
I don’t let myself feel and I can’t even hope

The scope of my feelings she will never get
When not even I have a full grasp of this mess
This bottled up thing, I’ll take this to my grave
What else’s it for me when there’s nothing but rain?