Secrets

Every night it's all the same
Counting sheep one by one
Trying to escape
I can't believe what I have done

Everything we had
Everything we went through
Everything we did
Was never good enough for you

I don't hate you
I hate myself for my secrets
I cannot find the right words to say
But I cannot keep it

Even if I knew what to say
I know you would not care
because you could pretend for so long
but you were never really there

We were perfect
and that is more than a fact
but its an untold secret
I really just want you back

But secrets get in the way
I don't know how, or what to say
I'll swallow these pills and fall fast asleep
And I pray to God you think of me.