What I Fear

I'm falling back,
Back down again,
Into old patterns,
Old habits
You thought I was over,
Because after all,
You were over it.

But here I am again,
Pen to paper,
Blade to skin,
Done with this life
Of pretend,
This time you can't
Bring me back again...
After all,
You can't fix someone
Who wants to stay broken.

You don't know what
To do with me anymore,
I'm just another problem,
Just another chore,
Just another friendship for
You to start to ignore...
And I've never fought this
On my own before,
I think I might lose
Alone.