However Improbable

Some things are
just not right
I thought I saw you
but you're not alive
I dreamed about you
But it's all in my mind
Now I'm awake
But I'm dead inside.

My head crashes -
have I finally gone mad?
Did I make up
everything we had?
If you're not real -
then why am I sad?
Why did I let things
get this bad?