Just Relax and Breathe

I stand here
A full bottle of pills clutched in my hand
I so desperately want to
I really just want this pain to end.
A single tear spills over and slowly slides down my face
What have I become?
When did wanting to take away my life become part of the plan?
When did anger and sadness take over my head?
When did the pain become to unbearable to let it last?
When this suicidal monster become me?
I have let my life slip away
I have nobody but myself to blame
Maybe I need help
I think I'm going insane
Take a deep breath, put the bottle down and walk away
Don't look back, next time won't have the same results
Next time you might have the strength
Instead of a full bottle
Next time it'll be an empty one
And I won't be alive.