Holiday for Her

I had this feeling, that it would come to this
I Just never thought it would hurt just as much as this.
I had those thoughts that you would bring me nothing but bliss.
But all I had in the end was enough to go amiss

Your tricks had me played like a video game
And now this shit, I know, will never be the same
I hoped you'd hear me,quietly calling out your name
But what is love, a charity to fucking shame

I laughed in the face of death, just to get the end.
An angel that I hoped god would fucking send
just as wrong as the last guy you lured right in.
Now my daughter will never have what I intend.

A picture perfect life, with a child and a wife
You never know the hype, till it sticks you with a knife.
I thought I had it all, but it's all just black and white..
What with losing color, you're just a fucking parasite.

I cry night and day just to keep it away
The ultimatum that I give myself everyday
Another bottle down and it's tough just to say
But I think I wanna die so, happy holiday.